Thanking trauma

今天我經過一個 因為過去曾有的創傷而一直避開的地方。然後我想像了一下 如果當初事情不同的話 現在的我的人生可能的樣子；我經歷了一個短暫的Nemo Nobody時刻。

可是你知道嗎？不管我有多少個人生分支， 最重要的是我現在有的這一個人生分支是好的。就算不是，我也會把它變成是一個好的。

感謝那曾經的創傷 把我從當時的路途撥開，我才會在我今天所在的地方。我們的人生中 太多事情不受我們控制的發生。如何面對這些事情的選擇，是我們唯一可以控制的。一步一步走著，也就到了一個自己可以認同的地方。

Today I walked past a place I avoided due to past traumatic events. Then I contemplated about how my life would have been if things were different; I had a Nemo Nobody moment.

But you know what? Doesn’t matter how many  split lives I have, the most important is that the one I have right now is a good one.  Or I make it into a good one. 

Thanks to the traumatic event which threw me off my path, that I am where I am now. Things happen in our lives out of our control. How we choose to face it is the only control we have. One step at a time, I was able to slowly but surely get to this place I can agree with. 

the only life

前一陣子我看了電影“Mr. Nobody"。

電影大致上敘說，Nemo Nobody在某個時間點上所作出的不同的選擇分歧出不同的人生分支。令我難忘的是，Nemo Nobody的每一個人生分支，都是以相同的情緒密度演繹；對每一個人生分支的Nemo來說，那都是他唯一僅有的人生。

我們所作出的選擇沒有所謂的對與錯；選擇僅僅帶領我們走上一個不同的人生道路。重要的是，在我們作出選擇的那個時間點，我們盡力作出了能力範圍內的，最好的選擇。當過了那個時間點後就別再想”如果重來的話…“吧；我不認識任何其它如果我曾經作出不同選擇我可能會擁有的人生分支。

我目前為止作出的選擇帶領我到了現在的我的人生，它是我唯一的人生。僅屬於我的。

A while back I watched the movie “Mr. Nobody”.

It is about different choices Nemo Nobody made at a particular moment in time led to different lives. What struck me was that the split lives of Nemo Nobody have all been portrayed with the same emotional intensity; to each Nemo at each split life, that is the only life he knows of.

There is no right or wrong in a choice we make; a choice merely leads to a different life. What matters is at the point of making that choice, we try our best to make the best choice we can. And stop thinking about the “What if” beyond that point; I don’t know about any other life/ lives I could have had if I have made a choice differently.

The choices I made to date led me onto this life I have right now, and it is the only life I have. My very own.